Ok, the reason i’m only adding this now is because it’s something I’ve never really told anyone because I’m not embarrassed by it and I’m not ashamed by it. It’s just something i tried my best to cover up. So let’s begin.
I’ve only felt like this on the odd occasion but when I’ve had my big drop seizures , well the one I had when i fractured my cheekbone and spent a night in hospital. Well the day I cam out , as I went to bed I knew yea you’ll be fine but I believe subconsciously I didn’t want to go to sleep because I wasn’t terrified to go to sleep but I didn’t want to go to sleep because of what happened.
Honestly there’s only parts I remember of the day when I fell but a lot of the day I have no idea what happened. One of the seizures I had when I fell off of my bed and as dad came rushing in , it was like having a panic attack in my sleep. This was another occasion where I was like “Nope no way am I going back to sleep”
They can be scary and the effect it has on you can be pretty big , it’s not impossible to overcome but it’s not a walk in the park. The way I feel now when I have them is literally just “Ok well let’s just try get back to bed” I don’t let them get me down I just get up dust myself off and crack on with the day